host: did you read the blog posting entitled "i am adam lanza's mother"? caller: i looked for it this morning on the web. i got a little bit of it. i wasn't able to access the entire thing, boy, could i relate. it's one of the reasons why i turn on the tv and i'm talking to you now. it's frightening. parents have got it so hard right now and i feel sorry for everyone in connecticut but i can really relate to the shooter's mother. it's just awful. host: monica, if you want to find it, it's the bluereview.org. just google the blue review.org, it should pop up. but inside this piece which has come under this criticism, this author writes about being terrified of her husband, but also writes that at least we have health insurance now. i recently accepted a position with the local college giving because we have a kid like this. because when you have a kid like this, you need benefits. you'll do anything for benefits. no individual insurance plan will cover this kind of thing. she goes on to talk about getting her son put into some sort of institution. she says